Am I Asking For Too Much

As you are well aware, my wife has undergone some trials that most people would have given up on, a long time ago.  Not her, she has kept the faith and is working hard to encourage others as they encourage her.

She wants to make sure that I am fine and that I am taking care of myself.  She worries that I will collapse one day from not getting enough sleep, working long hours to keep our family afloat, or just doing things around the house.  She worries that meals won't be cooked, the laundry won't get done, the dishes will pile up, or that the house will be dirty.

So poses my question.  Am I asking for too much when I expect my children to pitch in and help out without them being disrespectful.  Is it too much to ask for you to keep your attitude in check.  Shouldn't I anticipate that you would want to do things without the rolling of the eyes, the deep breathing sighs, or the folding of the arms.  Is a little male bonding wrong for me to desire.  Should I be looking for my brothers, family, friends (who are male) to ask me to a cup of coffee so that I can get away for an hour or two.  

There is only one man that I know of who can answer all of these questions and then some - I affectionately call him Daddy Melvyn.  He knows.  He's been where I've not even gone yet in being a caretaker, husband, and devoted protector of his wife - Mommy Allean.

Right now, he is the only man that I can talk to and be completely real with.  I'm not looking for a bromance - just someone who isn't always going to have a "spiritual" answer.  Please, enough already.  I live on earth.  I don't board in heaven, and the last time I checked, neither did you.

So again, am I asking for too much?  Can a real man of God whose head isn't in the clouds, please stand up?  I just want someone to let me know that it's ok to go into the corner and cry sometimes.  Someone to tell me that my feelings, fears, and anger are legit.  I need someone that will tell me the truth about myself and know that I will still remain the same with them and not hold a grudge.  

There are days when I want to kick in a wall, bust down a door, punch something, rip things apart and get out all of this hurt that I have stored up inside of me.  I just need to get out in the woods around a campfire with a brother(s) and shoot the breeze.  No bible study, no hymns, nothing but men being men - and even vulnerable with each other.

This might be too deep for some men, but I know who I am.  If women can be open, honest and  up front with one another - who says that we can't.  It took me years to come to the place where I could even trust men, and now that I can, I can't find one willing to take the time just to hang out.  I'm not asking you to go to the bar and get drunk, or hang out at some strip club- that's not who I am.  

I good brotherly embrace would do me wonders right now.  I know my brothers at church care about me.  Everyone of us has a family to take care of, a household to run, and jobs to go to everyday.  Am I asking for too much?