Rainy Day

I  am so glad that the rain has finally arrived.  I am sitting here today taking inventory of where I am "mentally, spiritually and emotionally"  I believe that too many men don't take a serious look at where they are and the effects of their lives take on the family unit.

Mentally, I still sit around and wonder why I can't find a job.  It's not for a lack of looking.  but because employers are being extremely picky.  It's a sad day when someone with a masters degree is getting an entry level job and the person with a bachelors can't even get an interview.  It's even more sad when Wal-Mart won't hire you because they think you are going to leave when something better comes along.  They could be right, but when you have to survive, and have 4 kids to feed - you do what you have to do as long as it's legal.  Of course, I don't feel like I am supporting my family the way I would like too.  What decent man, in his right mind wants to sit around the house while his wife is out working.  There comes a point in a man's life that he gets very frustrated with the economy, that anger begins to rear it's ugly head.

I feel like that woman that told the president how she really felt about the state of the country.  Like her, I don't know why jobs have not been created.  These companies have been given billions of dollars to create new jobs, make new initiatives and grow new industries - and still -NOTHING.  I live in the banking capital of the country and they are laying people off every time you turn around.

So what is a 44 year old, African American man to do?  Wait, and continue to wait some more.  I never thought I would see the day that I couldn't find a job.  There are days that I talk about going back up to CT for work and send the money home.  It's unreal how agencies up there can find work for me, yet the 8 that I am registered with down here can't find anything AT ALL.

I know God is working something out within me and I just need to be patient and wait in His time.  A man's limited patience dims in comparison to that our a larger than life Lord.  All I can do right now, is trust Him and believe His Word.  I have never seen the righteous forsaken, nor His seed begging for bread.

Tonight, I am going to go to church, lead my youth group, and know that my labor in the Lord is not in vain.  I am training up a generation for God that will change the world.