What Part of "I Don't Have A Job" don't people understand

It gets me right in the gut - and I have a lot of it, when you try to explain to phone solicitors, bill collectors, the doctor's office when they give me prescriptions and many other people - that I don't have a job.  I have enough issues trying to pay the bills that I have right now.

I am just thankful that I don't have car notes to pay.  By the time I get my little unemployment check - it's gone.  I have 4 hungry kids to feed.  I just had to get my son more sneakers - that boy is now in a men's 9 and he is only 8 years old.  It's a bit disturbing to walk into a grocery store, spend $50 and walk out with 2 bags containing 6 items and none of the items are meat.

My phone was ringing off the hook today.  That doctor called me asking me to take another pill and when I refused on the grounds that I can't afford it - he got upset.  I understand that I need to take care of myself, but kids come before me any day of the week.  I need time to investigate what he is giving me, what the side effects are and can I afford to get another copay.  I am putting out over $200 on meds every single month - cut a brother a break already.

We worked on paying off all of our prior debt we had in CT before we bought our house and they are still hounding me about things I have proven have been paid.  I am getting calls for another Anthony McKoy who lived in Balitmore and we have the same middle name.  When I googled him, he was shot dead two years ago - and they think I am him because he lived in Charlotte at some point in his life- identity theft in reserve.

I am not venting anymore - I am angry at how bad this economy is and the government that I help put in place is doing little to nothing to make our lives any better.  All of these billions of dollars spent for what?  No new jobs, no new industries, and seemingly - no hope.

Going to school right now is not an option, because I drive my college kid to campus every day and trying to help her find her own car.  Time to teach some tough love to a kid who takes EVERYTHING for granted and lives a life of thinking she is entitled to my services.  TV has really given kids a false sense of reality - time to burst that bubble.  Growing up is sometimes painful, but those trials come to make you strong.

I have remind myself that I serve a God who is more than enough.  I am learning more and more everyday how to be frugal with what I have.  My wife and kids want to go to CT for Thanksgiving, so I am trying to save a few bucks from our income to be able to go.  I have to get up there before that - and I am going - for our god-daughters dedication service.  There is no way I could let our friends down - not when they honored us by asking us.  I don't take that responsibility lightly.

SO, what is a man to do.  The Word of God says "After doing all you can do to stand - stand!"  I will stand on His Word.  I will stand on His promises.  I will stand and proclaim Him as King.  I will continue to bless others by helping them with the Word of God.  I will continue to volunteer at the school, at the rest home, with the scouts, in my community - until my change comes.  I'm going to wait on the Lord.  To be honest with you Lord - than manhood is starting to take a hit, and I don't like it one bit!!!!!!!!  It's getting hard to look at myself in the mirror and have a sense of fulfillment and accomplishment.  Listening to motivational speakers - out the door.  I listen to what my pastor has to say and let that be my hope for the day.

The next time that phone rings - I will explain again that I don't have a job.  I have not gone out and taken credit for anything that I could not afford to pay for.  I have enough sense to know that if I don't have a job, don't charge anything.  I learned that lesson at a young age - if you can't pay for it, you don't need it.  The problem that I see living in the south is that - collectors don't care how they speak to you.  They will borderline threaten you with all kinds of actions.  They will try your patience and your walk with the Lord.  What part of "I don't have a job" don't they understand - none of it!!!!!!