What Is He Doing With Me?

As I sit at my desk today, I wonder "what is God doing to me and through me?"

No, this is not a pity party for myself, this is a question and answer session.  About a week ago, I had an interview with one of the areas largest employers. My first interview in over a two years.  I think it was going well until I couldn't recall how to do revenue recognition.  It's not that I didn't know what it was, I just couldn't recall the steps involved.  About half way through, a light came on and it was like I never left accounting.

I have not heard from them yet, but the bright side is, I have been offered an opportunity to cater a lunch for 60 people.  I am going to take them up on the offer once I hear back from the office that called me.  This is where my passion is - in the kitchen cooking and baking.  Culinary arts is my dominant gifting and I pray it continues to make room for me.

A few weeks ago, I won the Cub Scout bake-off again.  I made a coconut cake with pineapple filling.  What won the contest for me was that I didn't just stick the pineapple in the cake, I seasoned them like one would an apple pie.  I am always trying to think outside the box.  One of the other scout parents told me not to enter next year because I have won 2 out of 3 contests.  The only reason I did not win one of them is because I wasn't there to participate.

Just this week, my local bank asked me to make something for them, and my son's school is looking for another lemon cake.  I am not trained in cooking, I have not taken any classes, and I think about what I would enjoy eating and would like to share with others.  So, again I ask myself - what is He doing with me?  I have asked Him over and over again why the offers aren't coming and He keeps pointing me back to the food aspect of my life - it's going to make room for me. 

I have a great peace about doing this even in this economy.  I believe I can compete with the big guys.  I don't say that in arrogance, but in the boldness God has placed in me.  If He is with me, who can come against me? 

I visited with the greatest retired exec at SCORE in Charlotte and he gave me the best words of encouragement, advice and resources.  He took the time to listen to my heart about food, and all of my stories about how important was was/is at all family gatherings.  He let me talk about how good God is, and how He blesses me with a new day - everyday.  Talking with him has been a great time of fellowship and opportunity to glean information.

He asked me if I would bring back something on my next visit to see him - of course I will.  I look at it as a chance to get my ability out there and someone of his caliber to speak it up.  The best of advertisement is word of mouth. 

I believe "He (God) is preparing me for something that I can't handle right now. He's making me ready for the just because He cares.  He's providing me with what I need to carry out what matters in my life.  God is preparing me" - Daryl Coley and the Wilmington Chester Mass Choir.

With that, I know I can't pursue wishes, but go after the hope that is within me.  I have to write the vision and make it plain.  I have to run with it and not faint.  I have to take it and write it on the tablets of my heart.  I can't sit around and wait to hear back from TLC/Food Network.  I know He has placed this burning desire within me to cook and to share great tasting food with the world.  The greatest thing is, it's not about the money - my gift will make room for me and give me the increase when the time is right.  It's all about doing what He wants me to do.  This is a ministry - feeding people is one of the greatest ways to get His Word out to the masses.


I keep hearing, "use what's in your hands"  For a long time, I didn't know what that meant because there wasn't anything physical in my hands.  After all of these years of being a Christian, I didn't see that it was a spiritual "thing" in my hands - my area of gifting.  So, I will do whatever it takes to make a few bucks right now.  I have applied for youth minster jobs at other churches, accounting jobs, even at Wal-Mart - what is He doing with me?  He's allowing a twig to become a tree.  He's allowing to a prince to become a king.  He's equipping me.