Restless

I didn't sleep well last night - not at all.   Not sure why, but I couldn't get comfortable.  I went to sleep thinking about how the scout meeting went, prayed and fell asleep.  I was awakened by what felt like my heart was racing. For some reason, I can not get through an entire night with the Cpap mask on.  At some point in the night, I get up, turn it off and hang the mask on the bed post  - all unaware that I've done it.

Maybe I am excited at the prospect of an interview.  Imagine, getting excited about a job interview.  In this day and age you better get excited about something.  Being without a job for the past two years has taken it's toll on me, but I wouldn't change a thing.

Changing gears for a moment.  Dinner last night was simple - we had fish, salad and fries.  The fish was prepared two ways - steamed in a light butter sauce with kiwi/lime seasoning, onions and green peppers served over yellow rice. The other was a fried flounder seasoned with onion and garlic powder, old bay, a bit of black pepper and sweet potato french fries.  I must have eaten half of the batch - those fries are the best.

Not to much to offer today - feeling very tired and worn down physically.  I feel like I need to get some sleep after getting in from the school this morning.  Those kids at the elementary school can spend every penny of a dollar.  I volunteer to work the school store on Friday mornings at 6:45AM - 7:30AM.  Let me tell you, those kids will stand at that table for 15 minutes trying to decide how to spend 25cents.  The funny thing is when you watch a kid try to take something without paying for it.  They look you directly in the eye as they try to put the unpaid item in their pocket.  When you say, do you have any money - they put the item back on the table in a hurry.  You have to keep your eye on all of them or they will rob your station.

Today was supposed to be my last Friday - 3 in a row, and then my wife says "you should keep doing it, Michael is happy you are there"  I guess if I can put him on the bus at 6:20AM, I should be able to keep going to the school to help.

I just figured out why I was restless.  My wife and I talked about going home to CT for Thanksgiving this year.  It sounds like a great idea, but we really can't afford to do it.   It's not a matter of the time, it's a matter of gas and transporting the entire family of up there.  We can't afford to fly and rent a car, so we will have to drive up there.  Then I have to feed all 6 of us while we are there, still not a problem.  Talked to my aunt and she said we could stay at her house.  I knew that before I called her.  We live on a very strict budget, so squeezing blood out of dime is hard right now.  I will come up with something to get us up there.  My kids haven't seen their friends up there in over 2 years now.  I feel like I owe them a trip home.

OK Adam, I hear you - DO YOUR BEST.  That is what I am going to do - my best.