Now, if you are a Christian, the next words should to the song should be "stayed on Jesus" Being the realist that I am, those were not the words on my mind. I woke up thinking about my daughter who is a senior this year, and how proud I am of here.
Like all kids, she can be loving, compassionate, caring and kind. Then there is the other side that I don't care to see too often. She does well in school and when she doesn't she is harder on herself than anyone I know. Back in the day, if I got a C+ on an assignment that I know I worked hard on, and gave my best effort - I was happy. Not her. She walks in the door crying and trying to understand why she got the grade.
Anyway, another opportunity came in the mail for her yesterday from the Global Young Leaders Conference. It's a chance to be a young world ambassador in one of several countries. This past summer she did 10 days at a Youth Medical Conference in Atlanta. She had a great time and learned a lot about the medical field. She wants to be Pediatric Oncologist. That event cost my family and friends $3K and we only raised half of the amount. I am still paying $245 a month until it's completed. Now we have this event which is about $7K. How do I tell her she can't go. How do I disappoint her and break her heart now that she is all excited.
I almost wish that I had intercepted the mailman and hid the thing from her but she got the mail while I was painting at the scout hut. As a dad, do I explain to her that we just don't have the money? I have considered making her get a job and pay for the trip herself. But, this is her senior year and she (we) have a lot of other expenses to pay this year. Someone help me here. When I graduated high school - they gave us 10 announcement and 10 tickets. Down here you have to order and pay for them. WHen did that happen?
When my income changed - everything changed. I really wish my mind was stayed on Jesus instead of hurting my child's feelings. I love her so much and want "daddy's little girl" to have the best of everything life has to offer. So now, I am going to church and hear what the Pastor has to say believing that I am going to get my answer this morning.
I'm in the same boat. Had to shut a few things down because of me unemployed. It's hard to tell the kids no, especially when they work so hard BUT she is a great kid and will understand. Jordyn too is in her senior year and between prom, graduation, pictures, etc, I'm gonna have to get a second mortgage to pay for it all. I have NO idea where all this money is coming from...LOL
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