Being In His Will

I had a friend of mine - whom I love dearly as if he were my own brother - call and ask me a very timely question.  When he said it, it hit me like a ton of bricks.  He asked me if I was in the will of God.  Did I think my move to NC was the right time, do I have answers about my health issues and the job issue.

I never looked at things from that perspective.  I know that God told me to move down here over 7 years ago and He released us to move 3 years ago.  So, why all of the health issues?  Why no job yet? Why the stress?  Am I walking in His will for my life.  I should have been leading a church by now and I know that.  I should have started working in the church a long time ago - and I know that.  There are a million - "I should have" moments that we all deal with .

Last night at church the preacher talked about a similar topic.  He said one thing that I did not agree with.  He said that God puts us in situations.  I beg to differ - He allows us to be in situations.  The Lord never puts anything that is against His character, upon His people.  He didn't put Job in the circumstances that he faced - He allowed Job to be placed there.  When Job went through his trials, the Lord to satan not to touch Job's soul.

He talked about how people have lost jobs, about to lose homes, seem to have no hope, family problems in the home, and the list goes on.  In spite of all of that, we should still give God the praise.  He used the example of a young lady in our church who is in a wheelchair for all of her life.  She has never walked a day in her life, but she does have the best attitude of anyone I know.  She is always on a "high" with life.  She is grateful for every moment - nothing bothers her, and she does give the best hugs.

I thought about all of that last night.  Am I in the will of the Lord?  Am I doing what He wants me to do?  Why don't things seem to work out for me anymore?  It amazes me that I still get calls from headhunters in CT and now I being ignored by the recruiters here in NC.  I was all excited about a job interview that never happened.  The recruiter isn't answering my calls, or responding to my emails.  I would stop into his office, but it costs $12 to park Uptown Charlotte where his office is located - I could get food for the family with that.

His will - should I go back to CT?  There are demons there that I don't ever want to deal with again.  People that I don't care to see anymore.  People that I wish I could see everyday.  My past is there, and it needs to stay there.  So why I am getting interview calls?  There are several open doors up there.  I could commute to CT during the week and come back to my wife and kids on the weekends.  I have considered it, and I still am.

I haven't been writing lately, not for anything, it's just that I haven't been in the mood.